[Monday April 9, 2007 - 12:01am] Uh oh. I'm addicted again. Already. Why do I have to be so self-absorbed? Is everyone this self-absorbed? Or maybe its not self-absorption...just my itch to write. And really...what am I going to write about? As if I don't do enough academic writing. As if I'm good at poetry. As if I have the attention span to write stories. This is all I have left. To blabber. Endlessly. So maybe I should say something substantial. Here are two things I have heard recently which I absolutely loved, but would never be so emo as to put on my facebook or on my AIM profile (ha. like writing them in here isn't emo. this is basically the epitome of emo. I might as well just write about my red red dripping blood). Anywho...here they are: 1. "I've waited my entire life to be this miserable" and 2. "You're never too old for space camp" I won't elaborate. If they really mean anything to me, I'll remember them in the future. I hope. Thats the joke of life, isn't it? There are so many important things I can't remember. Dislodged by a number of completely meaningless things. How much of my life has been replaced in my mind by movie quotes? I could go on for days with those. Is that sad? I hope not. But probably yes. I used to be funny with this. My current environment isn't exactly condusive to funny though. I'm in the dark, alone, looking out at a beautiful lit up Milwaukee listening to John Mayer. Thats melodramatic if anything is. I am so utterly bored. All I've really done over this break is sleep and watch movies. Yet I probably have a significant amount of homework that I should have been doing.  But hey, why do it now and make my life easier? When have I ever made my life easier for myself? Never. I always find the toughest situations and go for those. Gotta love it. 1 Did|Say Something

[Sunday April 8, 2007 - 11:44pm] Literature. Its so romantic. I love it. But sometimes I wonder if I actually do love it. Or do I just love the idea? I have ADD...it is impossible for me to focus on anything long enough to actually read said literature. So why do I love it? Maybe I love the peace of it. The stillness of sitting. And reading. Just reading. So calm. I want to be that calm. I'm not. I'm so..soo...just not. And do I really have ADD? I mean, I have symptoms, surely, but really....? I'm not so sure sometimes. Life is just a lot to take in, ya know? I don't want to miss it. I am though. God I love Milwaukee. I love absolutely everything about my life right now. Well, except one little thing. And its actually not that little, but I like to pretend it is so I can keep on loving every other little aspect of my life. Because I wasted a lot of time not loving. And now that I've started, I don't want to go back. (what have I gotten myself into?) 1 Did|Say Something

The Third Time's the Charm [Sunday April 8, 2007 - 8:48pm] Sooo, livejournal....we meet again. I'm not sure how I feel about this. Will I become just as addicted as I was in the past? To be quite honest, I haven't missed it too much. It felt very narcissistic to be writing so much about myself. But what else do I have to write about? Nothing. What other outlets do I have for writing? None. And I associate this with my angstier times. I unfairly believe the writing was what was making me unhappy. And I'm not unhappy now. I am happy to the max. Yes, to the max. And I am not writing. Coincadence? I dunno... I have been composing a poem in my head. Usually in the shower. Because that's where I think. Maybe I can finally put it down. I'll have to think about it some more though. Say Something

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